I am tired of life, tired of my existance. I actually went to the store today and had the means of ending my life in my hands, and somehow I put it down and instead bought a few movies. I have no friends to talk to anymore, and only my parents that I moved in with. I have refused to move back into my vacant house, not because of the reason I have told my parents that I am trying to sell it, but rather just to have SOMEONE, Anyone to talk to. I also was going to move to a new town "to start a new life", but I guess I am scared of being alone without even my parents around. They are barely living with their health issues, and I cant imagine what I will do when they pass away in the coming years. All I can think about is how I will kill myself, almost every second of the day.
I have tried to be a good person, a kind person, but I dont have that outgoing personality that attracts people, especially the opposite sex (women). I have never even kissed a woman, and I basically expect never to at this point, what whats the point of spending the next 20 years alone. I think it will be soon, really soon! I just cant stand looking at myself anymore in the mirror. I feel worthless, and ugly. Its no wonder no one wants to date me, or be my friend. So be it!
:itachi:
I have tried to be a good person, a kind person, but I dont have that outgoing personality that attracts people, especially the opposite sex (women). I have never even kissed a woman, and I basically expect never to at this point, what whats the point of spending the next 20 years alone. I think it will be soon, really soon! I just cant stand looking at myself anymore in the mirror. I feel worthless, and ugly. Its no wonder no one wants to date me, or be my friend. So be it!
:itachi: