i am currently 21 will b 22 soon if i make it but i have been battling suicidal issues since i was 11 years old. i know it sounds young to develop this kind of thought but my life has consisted of being made fun of, death threats, i have been raped twice and nobody has believed me on either occasion. my own family in a way thinks i'm different and that i'm not like the rest of them. i never grew up learning how to be a girl i always was with my dad playing sports. i have gotten help with the suicidal issues by seeing a psychiatrist, therapist, being on medications, being sent to rehab twice, but nothing seems to help me. could somebody just help me and tell me what to do?