I don't know if I can do it this year. Other years I have been able to but things right now are much worse for me then they ever have been. I know some people don't like Christmas because they are alone but I hate Christmas because I want to be left alone. Everyone will be talking about their lives and it will be impossible for me not to notice how bad my life is in comparison. When they ask me how things are going how am I going to be able to look them straight in the eye and say "good." My brother and sister who generally help me get through Christmas are both on holidays overseas. I still live at home and Christmas is at our house this year so I can't just not go. Does anyone have so Christmas survival tips for the suicidal and depressed?