My ex cheated on me with two prostitutes in Amsterdam, and I never found out until he split up with me. After he came back from the holiday, I had my doubts, and I cried and cried over them and got worked up into a state, so much that I thought I was fat, ugly etc, really getting myself into a complete frenzy. I have lost all of my confidence since finding out he had also met somebody else, just a day after he split with me. Then news came out that he was with two prostitutes on holiday. It ruined it even further, to the point that I was crying to my mum. Apparently she believes, he had the new girl way before the day after we split. This made me feel much worse. I mean, I can admit I'm not the worst looking in the world, but anytime I look at myself now, I look at tiny flaws and think "why can't I be thinner?" or "why are my boobs so weird?" I look at glamour models etc that he used to look at and think to myself, "what have I done to deserve this? and what makes them better than me?" I don't know what I did wrong. I was really the best I could be to him, our sex life was great.. I dunno what happened, and questions have went unanswered because he refused to answer them. I'm so upset, and I'm on counselling programmes etc but they don't help me at all to develop my confidence. I am so fed up with crying everyday and feeling like complete shite, when he walks around with a new girl, and I have to deal with losing his kid and losing my confidence and my whole world day after day, with nobody beside me to help me along the way. I really loved him What do I do now?