Im pretty fucked up right now. I really dont feel like going into the details so the main parts are that I have quite a few unresolved issues from the marine corps, 2 days ago my girlfriend of 7 years told me she has no feelings for me, 1 day ago she told me she is going to try things with my best friend and I live with them bolth. I dont know how to handle this and Im scared that I cant. I made therapy appointments with the VA and have called the crisis hotline a few times today. I dont think they help much for me outside of the fact that I am talking to someone with the unified goal of keeping me alive and a bit of time passes. To deal with this I have turned to a masochistic lifestly in the sense of physical pain. In that molment when im in sevear pain its all I can think about. The rest dissapears. I need that right now. Im trying to be proactive and positive in everything. Hence joining this community I guess. Its just really hard seeing them together. Seeing them lock themselves in the beadroom. Im not sure what I will do when I hear them fucking. I know it will happen soon enough though and im dreading it. I dont have a support system out side of the two of them and I cant really talk to them now. Not too sure where I am going with this. I would appreciate constructive critisism outside of "Things will get better" though.