How did i get here...well thats a very good question. The easy way was typing in the word suicide forum, but i do have a believe that something stronger pointed me this way.
At this very time i am struggling with quiet a few things. Work is really emotional for me, people that are rude to me. Being pushed around by people. You might think this sounds like nothing, but when i was little i was always pushed around by others, i thought when you are more grown up that people might be different, but people will alaways be children.
I have been struggling with depression for the last 4-5 years, i have not found real help yet, everyday is a struggle, i probably think of suicide 24/7, it seems like a nice way out, but everytime i try to commit it, it doesnt work. So since i cant even commit suicide i thought i come here to share thoughts so my days might look more positive.
I do have something positive to say, i used to cut alot for probably 3 years, but just last year i was able to stop, not sure what happened, i think i was very ashamed and was threatened by my father. I had some relapses but i think i am doin ok with it. Well i guess this is a little bit on where i am coming from, there is more to the story but i think this is ok for right now.
Thanks for listening