Ahh, I find it really difficult to talk about this stuff, I was raped when I was 15 by my then boyfriend who had plied me with ecstacy that night. At first I never knew it had happened until I found out I was pregnant by him. I had an abortion at 6 weeks. There was no other way it could have been any other night because I was a virgin at the time. I've had counselling for it, and I've put it behind me but I can't help but feel my new partner might do the same. I'm 17 now, and the man I am with treats me with the utmost care and respect. I feel like a princess when I am around him, but I can't get my past experience out of my mind. Does any one else know how to cope with it? I can't go back to my counsellor because she was a school counsellor and I've left school. I don't want to go to another one because I find it difficult to speak to people face to face.