The pressure is so immense. At certain times during the day, it feels like someone is standing on my chest. All I want is relief. I have people who care about me. I need to develop a better support system though. For all kinds of needs, both physical and emotional. It's just so hard to approach new people. I feel as though I am so broken that I should not bother them. I feel that I am old to the point that I should have had these issues figured out. But I don't. How do you ask for support when you feel like damaged goods? I'm anxious now. My breathing is short. My chest feels tight (no, I don't think I'm having a heart attack). My thoughts are racing. I catastrophize. I try deep breathing, but I can't concentrate long, so my thoughts creep back in. Along with it comes the siren's song. The promise of peace. The promise of not having to worry ever again. The promise of an endless and unfeeling sleep. How do I heal and learn to build a better support system?