Hi there, Here's a bit of background about me: I'm 20, and I suffer from an incurable chronic illness and have since I was 18. My girlfriend of two years, who was never supportive of me when I am sick, just left me. We went on vacation for a weekend to celebrate our two-year anniversary. While we were there, I had an ovarian cyst that ruptured, and I was in agony for a majority of the trip. Throughout doctors' visits and my trip to the ER, she was angry that I had ruined the trip, and wasn't very sympathetic though I was in severe pain. When we got home from the trip, she dumped me over a text message and told me she hadn't been happy with me for months, though she never voiced any concern beforehand. She says it wasn't my illness that sent her overboard, but I have a suspicion it was. After the break up, she agreed to try to patch things up and try to go on a date with me. She was excited to be around me. Then, out of the blue, she cancelled and told me she never wanted to be with me again. I found out, two weeks after the break up, she was already dating, and even having sex with someone who shares the same name as me. Naturally, I'm devastated. I was really in love with her, and thought my illness was something we could work through. She also had a brush with serious illness; doctors thought she may have had cancer. Throughout all her appointments and her fears, I was with her. I took care of her and checked up on her constantly. I did something really stupid, though, that has made things worse. When I found out she was dating so soon, I hacked all of her accounts and tried to sabotage her online life. I think I just wanted controlled in situation where she had hurt me so badly. I regretted it instantly, and reverted everything back to normal, but she eventually found out and I couldn't feel worse. I just don't know how to deal with this heartache she's caused me. I feel sick to my stomach 24/7. I haven't eaten properly in days, and when I sleep, it's disrupted with thoughts of her. I wake up and the sick feeling settles in my stomach again, and I feel worse. All of the stress and depression I'm feeling is making my illness act up, too, and I've missed three days of work trying to recover. Even worse, we are in the same university program and I know we'll have to work together again at some point in the fall. For those who have been through a bad break-up, how do you get over it? How do you move on when you're so devoted to someone and still so in love with them, even when they've hurt you? How does the sick feeling you get when you think of them with someone else subside, and when will it go away? Please help.