how do i get through this day

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Wastingecho, Mar 22, 2010.

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  1. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    i just don't see the point

    what have i got to look forward to? another year of THIS!?

    i'm just so tired of fighting it
  2. TheOncomingStorm

    TheOncomingStorm Well-Known Member

    Hang in there, you never know that this year could be the year something changes; something that means that finally there is a point to hanging on; Something that is worth fighting for.
    Take care x
  3. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    *comforts* It's going to be ok, Echo.

    Yes, I know it's hard. But we can get through it.

    How is the disability stuff going?
  4. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    officially approved for another 8 days - they sent something else to my doctor that has to be filled out

    doesn't make a difference really - not sure i'm gonna make it that far
  5. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    Why not? You've gotta stick around to whip the wimmin's butts in Boys vs. Girls... hehe!
  6. flyingdutchmen

    flyingdutchmen Well-Known Member

    i dont have all the ansers Echo, i wish i did. its obvious you are heavy depressed. only thing i can say is i have been suicidal meself for a long time, this feeling started disapearing wen i accepted my illness and stopped focussing on only the negative things i did. i still feel like shit and still am depressed but the reason that i have been able to make this step from depressed+suicidal to depressed 'only', gives me a litle bit hope for the future, at least for now. i hope you will find a way to deal with your depression so you can be able to see some light again. i hope you will take care of yourself and will find a way out of this misery your in
  7. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    there is one way

    i'm trying not to go there but it's so hard not to
  8. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    please don't go there... :no:

    so call me fucking selfish. i can't cope with this shit on my own, okay? **tears**
  9. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    :cry: i'm trying kali

    i just don't know if i'm strong enough today

    i just hate this day so damn much
  10. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    i know you do. I know ***HUGS***

    Mine was almost exactly one month ago and it was a nightmare.

    what have u got to look forward too...
    huh, at the very least, at the very bottom...
    you've got an idiot like me, for now. ...and what would i do without you? where would i be right now?

    go listen to that last song you shared with me...
    i can't even think about it ***tears*** without tears pouring from my eyes.
    i was going to go listen to it for you, but it makes me cry just thinking about it.

    look, so stay here, at the site today. let everyone here lend you strength.

    i'm sorry i am worthless with my words today, my head is still so messed up. ***hugs** i am here though and i can listen. thinking about your friends today? :console:
  11. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    nowhere to hide here

    all the pcs are in rooms that everyone uses - people keep coming in to use the other pc or pet the cats

    i don't dare cry - people would freak - just have to jam it all back down

    feel like i'm choking on it

    i don't feel well
  12. swimmergirl

    swimmergirl Well-Known Member

    get out of that house so you can at least cry!!!

    And help me figure out why i did not say a damn word to my doctor about my plans, thoughts and feelings today.....maybe because i dont want any interference?? maybe because it is a good day to die after all....
  13. 41021

    41021 Banned Member


    it is not a good day for either of you to do that

  14. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    sorry it's another bad day for you echo....
    do you have something you could force yourself to do?..
    go to a movie, a walk, sit in a park , go for a coffee...anything to get you away from the house for a while..anything to stop you thinking of THAT.....
  15. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    car's not working right

    it's pouring and i left my umbrella and hat on the train last time i came home from work

    just one more crap thing after another

    i need this day to end i need this day to end i need this day to end
  16. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

  17. swimmergirl

    swimmergirl Well-Known Member

    hang in there, i am, and the day is almost over, thank god.
  18. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    thank you all for helping me get through the day

    sedative working - should be able to sleep
  19. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    Sweet dreams Echo....
  20. Wastingecho

    Wastingecho Well-Known Member

    slept lack crap - 4 hours with sedative then in and out

    no cards, no fuss, no presents

    3 half-hearted "happy b-day" at the breakfast table, 1 phone message from my eldest daughter, and nothing at all from my son

    this morning i went to my main e-mail account and saw a message with an e-card from my mother - i can't even open the damned thing

    i mean why the hell should she even care - she knows i'm worthless - told her that point blank over the phone months ago

    dammit i did not want to start this day crying too
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