So, Bastila entered my office today (I have a fridge there) to pick up a soda. And she was smiling and friendly and joking and did not appear to have a problem with me. I had my earbuds in, was listening to a podcast and when she asked if there was soda in the fridge I said "I dunno" but I think I said it too loudly (had one earbud still in, hadn't paused the podcast) and it sounded rude/dismissive. And then, on her way out, she asked if it was going well and instead of using actual words, for some reason I decided to say "mm-hm!" instead, too loudly, I must've sounded rude and annoyed then, as well (I was not annoyed in the slightest). She replied with an exaggerated "...how great!"...she never sounds so exaggerated, she was either annoyed or...she was baffled by my rudeness and strangeness.
Immediately after she left I had anxiety about this, and only later did I realize that it's really unnatural to not ask her anything back. She's undergoing training for something I'll be trained in later, and I didn't even think to ask if everything was going well with her, or ask what it's like or anything.
I wanted her to like me
This thread is my work diary, now :p