Everyday the same thing no job everyone wanting to take from me and the repetitiveness of the day dealing with constant pain. I'm so sick of my shitty life. I don't socialise because everyone wants to talk about their selves and no one wants to hear anything i have to say. I wonder why i'm still here. I cry and get angry with myself but i want it all to end and the urge to do so comes in strong waves i have made so many plans for a quick exit and i feel scared too often.