I wanna start off saying that this is my first post and even if nobody reads this I need to say it. I have never been a very emotional person but over the last 3 years I seem to have just stop feeling anything for anyone and that includes me more than most. Alot of people have told me I am depressed but what does that feel like?? When I have talked about suicide the go-to line is about it being the cowards way out but I just can't see it like that. Suicide can be many things. Desperate. Sensible. Noble. Tragic. The ultimate exercise of free will. But cowardly? It is an animals primary instinct to stay alive at any cost. To override that whatever the reason we take a fully conscious act of responsibility, possibly the only real one we can ever make.