i dont know how i feel, how i should feel or if i can keep going. ive got a key worker, a psychiatrist and a psychologist, all working hard to help me, but im still slipping. why ? i dont know... i dont seem to bother anymore whether i live or not. im wasting everyones time and energy because i cant get out this bloody hole. im angry, frustrated and most of all scared, but at myself. i seem to take 2 steps forward and 3 back, how i hate feeling this way but most of all i hate myself, why ? i know therapy is hard and its going to take time but i never thought i would be left feeling so bad, talking about things trig gered me so bad ive been in a real state for over 2 weeks now, do i carry on or just learn to live with my fate ??? please ignore all off the above.