Hey i am new. I was wondering how to make my counselor understand that even if i am in a good mood i still think about suicide a lot. That I am worried that the means will meet up with the urge and it is hard to reach out and tell anyone when i am in this state? I said it exactly like that but he and the other people like the doc don't get it. I wanted to say i felt that way today but didn't. I was afraid of going back to the hospital but i am also afraid that the weekend will be to long... I deal with students myself in my job at my college and would tell them what i am being told but it is different. Feeling it is the only way to understand it and they try but i get so d*** frustrated sometimes. Don't mean to whine just want to know how to talk with him. I am kind of new at being open with the counselor and it is bringing up a lot of stuff which makes it worse.