I keep losing more abilities and freedom every year. My quality of life keeps diminishing and my world shrinking. I've been fighting OCD, GAD and bouts with major depression for twenty seven years and my level of functioning has declined dramatically. Less than twenty years ago I was working, getting about, involved in many hobbies (especially my off-road motorcycle) and to the best achievable degree of a ridiculously shy person- constantly involved with friends and outings. I'm now severely hampered by my OCD. My GAD has progressed to the point where my nerves are almost always frayed. Depression no longer is endured in bouts but is now almost continually present. My abilities to function through basic responsibilities and meeting the needs of an adult have become fairly poor. If I keep following this course I'm fearing I could end up in a group home. I'm being defensive but I feel like I've just painted myself as a pathetic creep. I come to this forum to try to be humorous, helpful and find some online kinship. I am ridiculously socially anxious (extreme physical abuse survivor) so I haven't and don't know when I can get to PMing anyone- I'm very sorry. Getting back to the thread title, I don't know how I can keep resisting what I see as a humane act by undoing this life I did not ask for. I know I will destroy the lives of the people who love me and infect them with the same, possibly even worse depression I am now battling. It is this knowledge that has sustained for a few years now. I am certain though it is only a matter of time before I surrender. Does anyone here feel suicide is your absolutely inevitable fate?