I have been depressed for a long time now off and on... I have recently come to a point in my life where some things have happened and it has hurt me greatly to know that I am the way I am. I have lived through many years of hurt and depression and self doubt and very low self esteem. Now all of this is hurting everything in my life... I feel like in a way I have no life. I had a very good relationship with my BF, but we have just got to the point where all we were doing is fighting, and so we are taking a break. He says he still loves me but I have a hard time believing he or anyone could love me. There is so much more to tell, but the bottom line of it all is how do I change the way I think after all these years of feeling this way about myself? That I have never been and never will be good enough...? I have tried counseling for a short time, although that did not help. I have been on many types of anti-depressants and now on lexapro and it seems to be no use anymore. I am running out of answers... Can someone please help?