Even in the most basic conversations all humans have this instinctual knowledge, this general grasp of trivia, this high level of awareness of even the most minor of minutia that they all take for granted. This is how people bond, make friends, form relationships, etc. with people with wide ranges of differences. Yet not only do I not have this ability, but I have no common ground with anyone being as I can't get pleasure from anything. I also have Asperger's Sydrome, trouble learning, trouble processing auditory information (doubly so if there's any background noise or other people around talking), and have to work very hard to cover up my depression and loneliness with a bright smile and a jovial manner. Even online connections don't seem to work, as I'm just too different and can't keep up with everything everyone else knows. Hell, I've had several people online feeling uncomfortable speaking to me because they felt I was way too smart for them, an attitude which I can only assume comes from my obsessive writing style considering what intelligence these people suppose I have doesn't manifest in reality. I can't think of anyone who would consider an adult who has to rely on his parents to do simple things, bombs any college course that isn't introductory level, and has to approach socialization like it's rocket surgery "intelligent". Tried Asperger's groups, social groups, and meetups with no luck. Volunteer and work, but have nothing in common with the people there and most of them are a lot older. I've never even been able to bond with my own parents. Is there any hope for me ever feeling a connection with a human? If not, is there a way to squelch the desire?