Hi everyone, I'm new to the forum. I'm a 26 year old male. I've been to the chatroom a few times and have met some very kind people. I think this is a great site. One of the biggest factors having to do with suicidal feelings is anhedonia. If you don't know what that is, it's a symptom of major/clinical depression. Here is the basic description from it's wiki page: It's one of the most harrowing symptoms of clinical depression simply because we are meant, as human-beings, to experience joy and pleasure. I've been on so many different anti-depressants- the three main classes of them TCAs, SSRIs and SNRIs. I've also been on mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, benzodiazepines, etc. I simply don't respond well to any of them. I am currently on an SNRI called Pristiq (much like Effexor) but it wore out long ago and the main reason I'm still on it is because it was my "end of the road" medication. I've tried all the SNRIs available in the US so at this point, there's nothing to switch to besides an MAOI and my psychiatrist feels that class of drug is far too dangerous for me due to the food restrictions. You may also wonder why I don't just stop the medication if it's not working. The reason for that is Pristiq withdrawal (or as psychiatrists refer to as "discontinuation symptoms") is known for it's long duration and harshness (to put it lightly) since it's much like Effexor. The discontinuation could put me at a much higher risk for suicide and that's something I don't need right now. I'm currently working with a CBT (cognitive-behavioral) therapist for coping skills and to change my negative thought patterns but I don't believe CBT is able to reach far enough to touch many symptoms of clinical depression- especially anhedonia. So I'm asking for advice. Are there any techniques out there to get my pleasurable feelings back without medication? Or is this just a part of clinical depression that can't be cured as long as you have the illness? I know it sounds like I'm asking how to cure clinical depression but it's more so this particular symptom of it. I plan on discussing it with my therapist tomorrow but I don't believe I'll get the answer I need. So I'm asking you guys. Thank you for reading and I look forward to your responses.