My doc increased my antidepressant meds to the max dose on Monday. My Gp says not to give up, to hold on.
To cut my story short my therapist says I have issues expressing anger. I internalize any anger into self-loathing, selfharm and suicidal feelings.
These selfhatred and suicidal feelings are overwhelming as you all know.
So the therapist says I need to smash a cup, scream at the top of a mountain, something like that......
I live in an apartment, don't have a backyard to smash cups in, neighbours too close to scream, no energy to drive to any hilltop isolated enough to scream on. The depression has zapped any energy or desire for any sport or exercise. Maybe when max dose kicks I'll get more energy, but for now - any ideas for expressing anger would really be appreciated.
It's so alien to me the thought of smashing a cup- of opening the floodgates terrifies me. But as my therapist says the floodgates must be opened to stop any sh or suicide.
Thanks
To cut my story short my therapist says I have issues expressing anger. I internalize any anger into self-loathing, selfharm and suicidal feelings.
These selfhatred and suicidal feelings are overwhelming as you all know.
So the therapist says I need to smash a cup, scream at the top of a mountain, something like that......
I live in an apartment, don't have a backyard to smash cups in, neighbours too close to scream, no energy to drive to any hilltop isolated enough to scream on. The depression has zapped any energy or desire for any sport or exercise. Maybe when max dose kicks I'll get more energy, but for now - any ideas for expressing anger would really be appreciated.
It's so alien to me the thought of smashing a cup- of opening the floodgates terrifies me. But as my therapist says the floodgates must be opened to stop any sh or suicide.
Thanks