How do you get past the feeling of wanting to take all this internal pain away? How do you get past the constant beacon around every corner? How do you get past the flashes that flash through of your mind making the end seem so fricken easy. The image of all the agony being released from your body as you hit that moment right before you die...that single moment of finally having freedom. How do you begin to feel whole again without wanting to die? How do you make life worth living for when all you have left to live for is death? I'm beginning to think I should have posted this in crisis...cause that is what I am in at the moment...but I don't have the energy to retype this.