I swear my every other thought if "I want to die."
I'm not going to actively do anything although when I hear of people who have died my first thought is "How lucky, why couldn't it have been me?" 15 people have fallen off of half-dome (I'm a couple of hours away from yosemite). My first thought was great idea, do I have to pay the full park fee or can I just pay half? maybe I can take a tour bus up there to save on gas, and not have to worry about my car being found.
It sounds stupid but I don't want to hurt my dog or my boyfriend. I found his gun this morning, news to me I didn't even know he had one. I couldn't do anything to him I can only imagine how he would be left feeling if I used it, maybe it would be for the best I'll be gone and I won't be a bother to him anymore.
Life's getting worse and worse each day I can't keep up with it, but I don't want to hurt the one person that cares. Why?? :i'm sorry:
I'm not going to actively do anything although when I hear of people who have died my first thought is "How lucky, why couldn't it have been me?" 15 people have fallen off of half-dome (I'm a couple of hours away from yosemite). My first thought was great idea, do I have to pay the full park fee or can I just pay half? maybe I can take a tour bus up there to save on gas, and not have to worry about my car being found.
It sounds stupid but I don't want to hurt my dog or my boyfriend. I found his gun this morning, news to me I didn't even know he had one. I couldn't do anything to him I can only imagine how he would be left feeling if I used it, maybe it would be for the best I'll be gone and I won't be a bother to him anymore.
Life's getting worse and worse each day I can't keep up with it, but I don't want to hurt the one person that cares. Why?? :i'm sorry: