I recently started on anti-depressants that make me feel..nothing basically. Numb. But if I'm not numb I'm in a downward spiral. I see nothing good in the future, and my boyfriend doesn't help. I'm 25, laid off for over a year and actively seeking work. My BF is 29, laid off and I don't see him making any progress in actively looking. I think about other people all the time that I'm attracted to, even during sex, which has been non existant for a couple months now. He's clingy, calls me multiple times a day, and I can't even think of anything to talk to him about when I do talk to him. He likes to cuddle. Which is fine but he can't get enough of it. He's sweet, smart and funny and knows my imperfections. It's been 7 1/2 years and I've felt nothing for a while before the pills, but now it's worse than ever. His friends are my friends, he's part of the family and he accepts me for who I am. I just feel like being alone. Not with anyone. In a way I wish he'd break up with me so I don't have to worry anymore. I'm not sure what to do. I don't want to ruin one of the best things that happened to me, but it all went to shit.