Ah, I dunno where to start. My parents disowned me 2 years ago. I have no other family, nor siblings. I then developed a huge drink problem. I've been getting help the past coupld of years for it. My keyworker has gone to another post. Our social worker has upped sticks and pissed off, without even a sodding goodbye. My mobile phone has been out of action for 4 weeks now due to my dd2 locking me out of it. I finally got a puk codoe for it on Friday. Turned it on.....not even one fucking text in 4 weeks. My dd1 (darling daughter 1) calls me lazy ****, lazy bitch, idle bastard all the time. She hits her sister endlessly. DD2 says she has a sadness in her stomach. She's 12 next week. DD1 is 14. I now have no job. I've planed a party for DD2 next week and stupidly realised that they'll be stopping me benefits. DD2 has a learning difficulty....now I've made her look like a total **** in front of her new friends. Can't even get that right. But to the point. I have no hugs, or kisses. I have no emotional contact whatsoever. I have no friends that I can call on. My ex even said no to taking the girls when the hospital wanted to admit me with suicidal thoughts. I have decided it is my time to go soon. I can#t cope with this shit anymore. Can't even get a fucking job. Have no mother figure in my life, no one to turn to to offload or to hug. How do you know when it's time to go?