I was considering going back to college to get my nursing degree, until I recently fell off the boat again and feel like all my months of progress have just been squandered and I am back to square one. I'm going back on meds tomorrow and I honestly feel like all of these months of trying to get myself back together were pointless because I just smashed and broke into a million pieces again, and it'll take another God knows how long to find them all and glue me back together again. Now I'm thinking what is the point in attempting college again if this is just going to keep on happening? Why bother trying to find a career and a life? Every time I do, something happens and ruins it all anyway, so surely I should just accept defeat and find another way to live. We all need money and stuff though, so how do those of you who cannot manage to work get by? I've always wondered. Mainly those who aren't living at home. I live with my Mum right now and she pays for everything, but I'm 26 and I know she wants me out of the house within the next four years, how will I get by then? I do want a job and I want to work and be 'normal', but I just don't know how to! How do people do this? Some days are better than others obviously, but what about the bad days? I can't just keep calling in sick for the rest of my life.