For as long as I can remember my favourite words have been "hmm, nah I can't be bothered" or "I haven't slept, I'm just too tired". I manage to talk myself out of everything. Jobs, college, dates, meeting up with friends, any plans I may have had for the day. Getting out of bed in the mornings feels like I am trying to climb a mountain, it is the hardest thing in the world and even worse when I haven't slept. I always find it difficult to want to do anything other than crawl back in underneath my duvet and stay there for the entire day. I don't know why, I have just always been like this... right back as far as about age 9 or 10 I can remember not wanting to go to school and pretty much not wanting to go anywhere. I don't know how people wake themselves up in the mornings to go to their job or to class. For me it's the hardest thing ever and if I manage it I'm usually shocked and surprised! Another reason why most of my jobs have only lasted a few months (eventually I'd just get too lazy to go in). I know part of this is depression but surely it can't all be? And a lot of the people on here have depression but still manage to go to work, how come I can't?