I was diagnosed with PTSD, panic attacks, anxiety attacks. I was sexually abused as a child , mentally and physically abused from age13-18 and raped by a friend at 25. I feel like there should be nothing left to fear, the major damage that can be done already has. Yet every day I find myself longing to die. I can't stop the never ending anxiety from triggers thatseem to flood my body like with another painful reminder that my mind and body doesn't know how to cope. I feel no one will understand what im going through, its a struggle to keep holding on. I have emotionally moved to the point of no longer fearing death. Everyone tells me it will get better, but what if there is nothing to want in life anymore? How do you look forward when you no longer see a path?