I was injured severely by someone who knew my vulnerablities like no one else (my former therapist)...because all through my life people have abandoned me without explanation and this therapist abandoned me without explanation, even knowing I was hospitalized being suicidal and let me go on believing it was my fault and that I am "shit" and should be dead. She did nothing to help...after 3 years of only caring, for her to turn on me like this was completely devasting. To make it worse, even though she officially stated in her termination letter she would be avaiable for emergencies, she had an injuction filed with the courts to keep me from contacting her!! that adds insult to injury, making me "officially" bad for asking for help when I am suicidal. Thus, in a way, since she refused to help me when i was suicidal, she might as well have just said "Hey, i want you to die!!!". How do I put this person behind me? Every time I think about her, and what she did, I just want to die all over again. I'm still actually planning on dying, but there are many reasons for me dying, not just her. (I promised myself I would kill myself. It was a serious promise too, because so many promises have been broken in my life that I didn't take this promise lightly, because I didn't want to break promises with myself.) It will literally take a miracle to keep me alive now. but i dont' know. how do i put "her" behind me, how do I not think about her, when i'm in a city that is "infused" with her?