How do you stay strong and overcome

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Multiple Man, Sep 4, 2007.

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  1. Multiple Man

    Multiple Man Well-Known Member

    Im suffering so much and I have no strength. How do you go ona nd function. I had to quit my job and everything. I can barely bring myself to eat or bath. I live in constant misery. People seem like they cant bounce back after a few weeks. Its been a long time for me and It jus never goes away. Im hurting so immensely every second of the day. I cant take it. Im so weak. I dont know how to overcome or be strong. I dont understand why I cant just wake up and accept whats happen and move on. It hurts so bad. I loved so deeply. And theres nothing left of me. I dont know. I cant heal. Seems like this wound is too deep.
  2. pit

    pit Well-Known Member

    I've been in thousands of situations like yours.

    I distract myself with things. Music, books, TV, this website, porn, whatever helps.

    Sometimes creativity helps. I write poems sometimes. And I like to read other people's poems. I call my pieces peoms.

    The further you stand back from a problem, the more perspective you get.
  3. Insignificant

    Insignificant Account Closed

    hey there, i thought i would let you know i have lived with severe depression for 32 of 37 yrs of life. i began serious with suicide at the tender age of six. i can relate to you and know what it is to suffer through so much and just never feeling like you'll get through it, but i assure you can.

    when i was growing up i felt my entire life was going to be like i was living then, but it hasn't. when you're feeling weak accept it as a time that you should just rest, and there seems to come a time (at least for myself there was) when i wasn't tired anymore. i would just have to get up and do something. the question then became what? i managed to come up with stouf.

    it sounds to me like you really don't want to feel defeated about life otherwise you wouldn't be reachin' out here. you have what it takes to get through this and i believe this with all my heart. just continue to share. don't worry about what you are or arent doing. take care of yourself get the rest you need and it will come. just keep venting. it helps

    please take care
  4. justsomeguy

    justsomeguy Active Member

    I can relate. I just stopped working and have no plans whatsoever to start again. I'm in a complete "fuck-it" stage, where I don't even answer my phone or return calls. I probably wouldn't bathe at all if I didn't have the fear of people seeing me looking unrespectable.

    I don't really know why I'm telling you this...I guess I just wanted you to know that I really can relate. Hopefully, the both of us can overcome this shit.
  5. KavithaB

    KavithaB Member

    I am sure you can all overcome it. PM me if you want to speak. I'm happy to listen and help you if I can.
  6. Multiple Man

    Multiple Man Well-Known Member

    Help how?

    My wife of 4 years cheated on me for probably half that time. Went to another country to marry some rich old guy. Took my heart and probably my life with it. I put too much of myself in her. She was my everything. Few days ago i stumbled across a site that had the wedding pictures of them. Ive been through alot of pain and abuse in my life, im a tortured soul and have been suffering from depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember, I never felt pain like this. Im too much of a coward to commit suicide but im trying so hard to find a quick painless method but doesnt seem to be one.

    I know im a weak person. I really believed in something pure between us that was unbreakable but it seems noone is really honest.

    If you really want to help me, tell me where I can buy a cyanide pill or give me some easy quick painless ways to end it. Other than that, i honestly believe im beyond helping. I just needed to vent, im sorry.
  7. Forlornspirit

    Forlornspirit Well-Known Member

    I have not a clue what's going on in your head. Only you do. But, something that I do, for a fact, know is that you are NOT weak. You came here with hope, and by golly you found a room full of people bursting with it. You have the will to overcome. Yesterday I had a gun to my head, so many things going through my head (severe anxiety) so I pulled the trigger. And like magic, it wouldn't shoot... Safety was off, it was loaded, cocked back. And it just wouldn't shoot. Honest to god, that was the happiest moment of my life. I believe that every person has a purpose, you make what you want of your life, no one but you can tell you how to live it. But, at least live it. Give life one more chance.

    If you would like to talk, I'm here. PM me and I'll be right there.
    Please take care.
  8. Multiple Man

    Multiple Man Well-Known Member

    First off im glad your still here. I dont know what brought you to that point.

    I wish I had your courage though to put agun to my head and pull the trigger. Im too much of a coward to even go and buy one. All I know is your stronger than I am. I really dont want to live. But it seems i have no choice but to live and suffer immensely.
  9. KavithaB

    KavithaB Member

    I am very sorry about your life. I have also tried to suicide. I cut my veins and blood was gushing. The pain was unbearable but I thought it would end in few minutes and I kept cheering myself. I had a total black out due to loss of blood but unfortunately someone spotted me (I guess) and was brought back to life in a hospital.

    Okay. Forget about it. Even though I do not want to live any more, I do not want to mess up my life. I urge you to also do the same. I have also been betrayed - very badly - not by my boyfriend but by someone whom I trusted very deeply and loved so much. I know how it hurts. But when she can get away with it and also have her pictures posted somewhere and live gleefully, why should you die? Forget her. Try and forget her. Start living your life. Tune your mind back to the period before you met her. I know it is difficult but please try.

    I am happy to listen and you can vet your emotions to me. PM me if you need. I am there. But please try and live.
  10. Multiple Man

    Multiple Man Well-Known Member

    It wasnt just about her it was about losing a lover, the prospects of a family, a dream, and basically everything. And those pictures are burned in my mind and nothing I do can take my mind off of it. Thats why I want to die, so I dont have to think about seeing them kiss and hug and live the rest of my life in guilt and regret and agony and missing her. But its ok, I hope shes truly happy. Im a worthless nothing and probably deserve this life. I can officially rule out cutting my wrists after hearing yoru story. I have a low threshold for pain but there really isnt a easy way to die. People always keep telling me to keep going, stay strong, fight through it. I have been for years and years. I dont want to fight, I just want to live. Have a normal, comfortable content life. life isnt about struggle, its about love and family, and without that life is meaningless.
  11. KavithaB

    KavithaB Member

    I am glad that somewhere you say that you want to live. I understand how much it must burn you to see the picture. But just try and forget it. You may not have known her few years back, is it not? You are not a worthless nothing. I don't think you. You deserve a better person in life. That's it. When the time comes, you will meet a good partner and have a nice life. Hang on until then. Try to forget about this girl. It is not worth living everyday thinking of her or dying for her, is it not?
  12. Multiple Man

    Multiple Man Well-Known Member

    Its was never about a woman. No she wasnt worth dying for, it was this vision and dream I had of a better life, a wife, kids, stability, normacy, and god forbid a lil happiness every once and awhile. Before her even its just this long track of failures and regrets I have to live with, this one just took the cake. You just dont recycle people you fall inlove with, its just not that easy.
  13. KavithaB

    KavithaB Member

    Well, if it is not about a woman, then I am glad. If it is a vision and dream then you still have your rest of your life to realise it. Even in a race there can be only 3 winners (1st, 2nd and 3rd), rest are losers. Just because you lose doesn't mean you never participate in a race. It is not easy to forget a love. But when the memory gives you only pain, it is worthwhile to try to think of something else. I know it is difficult, but you can if you try.
  14. JustWatchMeChange

    JustWatchMeChange Well-Known Member

    I am learning to forget my stupid past and my possible horrible future and just enjoy now
  15. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    I'm not:sad:

    If I could I'd have his memory expunged out of my head..whoever said "it is better to have loved and lost than never loved at all" was a fucking idiot.
  16. JustWatchMeChange

    JustWatchMeChange Well-Known Member

    I am so sorry terry, crap i know what u mean. I wish I could just extract certain memories and be done with them. if u ever want to talk msn me at I am so sorry.
  17. markc

    markc Active Member

    Amen to THAT, brother!

    When I joined the forum back in July, I just recovered from my attempt, and it was because of rejection by a woman I loved. Since then, that love has become a knock-down, drag-out, tooth-and-nails fight between the two of us. I also just discovered (as in YESTERDAY) that she has NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) and you have no idea how much that knowledge has freed me. It basically explains virtually every shitty thing she's done to me over the past two months. I feel like I just stepped out of the shower, and the layer of anger and depression that has been clinging to me has been scrubbed off.

    Multiple Man, I absolutely agree that you can't recycle the people you fall in love with. I'm still in love with this woman, even though I want to throttle her most of the time. However, I've finally reached a mental and emotional place that's allowed me to step back and not invite the suffering I use to constantly experience. It's unbelievably liberating.

    You can find a new love and a new life. It starts with friends and goals. Find something (realistic) that you can strive towards (job, personal development, big world tour, whatever) and start to work on that. The goal will help motivate you and the friends will support you. If you keep looking, you'll find love again, and it'll probably come from the last place you expected (it just seems to work out that way.)

    I did it when I didn't believe I could. You can too.


    - Mark
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