This is an odd way for me to start. I have been on other depression forums out there, and a whole story to tell, and it's by pouring out my problems that people read my first post. I think I can last a few more days before I say something about it, if I feel up to it. But I will start with questions which kept going through my head while I was reading some of the various posts today. Mostly when I would read and hear a solution like 'talk to someone'. How do you try to talk, about Death, with the person closest to you? And then moving over to how do you try to talk, about Suicide, with that person closest to you? And just to give a slight background, my grandma died sometime back, I've had "suicidal" desires but not attempting or planning, no loved ones to talk with, and the one person closest I've suddenly felt far apart from. For that last one, I pretty much don't want to talk to my friend about death because when I did talk about my troubles recently, it almost drove a hard wedge in-between us. I'm damn lucky that I somehow managed to bring us back to some good conversations to hear her laugh. But she's the closest I got to talking to, which brings back the questions to mind.