I use to try, but I cant be bothered trying anymore. It takes too much effort...
If I feel happy, I feel happy...if I feel like shit, depressed, or in one of those "death modes" as I call them...then thats how it is..
Its a pity it effects other people to a degree, but I cant be bothered trying to hide it anymore.
Even though ill be starting to get treatment soon...nothing in reality has improved at all, in fact its getting worse. I hope the psych can lead me in the right direction...because it really is my last hope.