I’m hoping this makes sense. My level of intoxication is quickly increasing as my number of beers decreases. I’m supposed to be going to see a therapist at a hospital in days. My mother is bipolar (pretty sever from what I hear from my father) so they are likely to question me on the matter. But I would like to know how other bipolar people feel. How ‘high’ is the feeling high period? There are a few things I will not tell him as to risk them informing the military I am not fit. I am. There is nothing more I want to do, and I will not allow myself to fuck it up. I’m doing this to fix myself, not to fuck up my plans for the future. I went to the doctor explaining depression, but I’m not even sure how to tell the difference, or how to decide which one I am. I convinced him I was not depressed after my doctor sent me to him. I didn’t want help, stopped seeing him, and a few weeks later made my first attempt. Luckily I was always so high my method didn’t work, and my already fucked system puked out my inefficient poison. On the basis that I out tricked one, I can trick the next. I’m mostly down, but I’ve had months were I feel fine, quit drugs, do well in school, and then go back into my failing, drug involved, life. But, I attribute this to my old drug habits, not bipolar disorder. After all my rambling, all I really need to know is how to differentiate between bipolar and depression. Please help.