As the title says. I turned severely suicidal for 4 months ago and my situation is probably the worst anyone in the world has experienced (I know it sounds crazy, but that's really what my logic mind tells me, my situation is so freaking disgusting beyond any words). So how does one do? I'm not looking for ways to get motivation cus I know I will have absolutely none for about a year (after that we'll see). That there's a little, very little that still might be hope in the end (but probably not is what my mind tells me) is why I'm still alive to this day (although it's really hard). I've isolated myself as much as I can, quit my job and never see my friends anymore whatsoever. Due to circumstances though I'm actually forced to interact socially at least a little every day. The only thing I can do in these situations is not to be anybody at all and social interactions now actually terrifies me, as I don't want to say or do anything. That all this has happened to me is really shocking. The first month I wrote suicid-letters everyday on my phone and couldn't believe this had happened to me. But anyway, how does one live without any motivation to live whatsoever at all? Does anyone know some way? Also how the hell do I interact socially when I have no will to live whatsoever anymore. I hope people understand what I mean.