I just got most of the "equipment" I need to kill myself. I was just wondering about something though. I have a lot of younger cousins that I see like once every few months. How would the suicide of a 19 year old effect cousins that are about 10 years younger. The reason I ask is because I saw a person close to these cousins die and they were sad at the funeral but because they are so young they don't seem very effected or traumatized, they don't seem to fully understand. So what is it like from the perspective of a 10 year old whom rarely sees this cousin. Is it likely my family will "shield" the younger children from the truth and just say I was hit by a car or something? I won't be here much longer. I really appreciate your answer to the question as it could reduce a lot of pain for others.