While I was gone I didn't think much but when I did I began to wonder when these feelings started and I can't remember. I find it so hard to look back. I'm wondering if this is normal. I can't seem to remember much about before I was 13 i think but where I lived and some people. I can't remember the layouts of my old towns or places or names of people that seem important and faces I can't place names to. I can't remember the good times or the bad times. I've talked to people and they have such vivid memories they could describe the day and time and weather of things when they were 10. I have no such memories of birthdays or christmases or gatherings or of painful things or important events it's like back then almost never happened in my mind. it bothers me a little that i cant remember and makes me feel even more empty and hollow inside even more worthless because it makes me feel like ive done nothing and im still not. just wondering.