I don't know how I turned out to be SUCH A MESS!! Besides being a mess, I also make a mess out of everything. Out of the simplest things, the SIMPLEST THINGS! I myself don't understand how can I ruin ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING! Sooner or later ... but the time will certaily come when I'll ruin it. What? It doesn't matter. I'll ruin it. Maybe I should wear a warning. "STAY AWAY!"