How I feel during attempts

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It's a sadness very deep. Profoundly deep. Fear. Extreme terrifying fear as well. But whenever I am close I have a fighting instinct that kicks inside me. Seems to be similar to my life in general. I will lose everything and give up hope but I somehow start up again when I become too uncomfortable. Wish I could just follow through and accept the emptiness.


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Suicide goes against everything we are.. It isn't easy..I've tried three times..Failed each time because my human nature kicked in..Two of the times I wasn't able to do anything but ride it out..I was unconcious..No one in my family knows of this..So please listen to that little voice inside you.. It won't guide you wrong..
What if the little voice inside you is telling you suicide is the right thing, and you have to use logic to override it?
I get that too sometimes. I think of it as the "angel" and the "demon", with the "demon" being the voice that keeps driving me to kill myself, and the "angel" the part of me that somehow always brings me back from the edge.

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I've startled myself out of attempts with the thought of "What am I doing?!"
Even though I know precisely what I am doing, and why.

Instinct is stronger than emotion, I think is what it comes down to.
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