how I feel :( (Possible trigger)

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Zoee, Apr 13, 2010.

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  1. Zoee

    Zoee New Member

    Well im new here and I just wanted to put this out there because I feel like im going crazy :( I used to cut myself. Whenever I get angry, I cant control myself. I hot my head against things constantly. I punch walls until I feel my bones crack. I have to hold myself back from Running thorugh windows. Its like I cant control my own body. And when I feel this way I cut myself and feeling the sharp blade slice through my skin makes me feel better. I just go numb. I cant be overly happy, but even the most depressing thing doesnt make me sad. I havent cut in three months until recently. i tried so hard not to but I did yesterday. I seemed to have controled myself the past few months, but i feel the old feelings come back. i dont know what to do! I tried councelling and anger management gave up on me :( Im stuck :(
    But yeah, i dunno if any of this makes sense coz I just had heaps of feelings rushing to me when i wrote this, i dont think i got how i feel across properly but oh well. Better then nothing :) Just wanted to talk about it.
     
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