How do you feel when you see somebody your age living a better life than you? They walk around with their girlfriend/boyfriend, while you sit there with nothing. I have not had a girlfriend all my life, and I consider myself asexual because of it. The fact of the matter is, it absolutely sucks. I would love to have a kid one day, so I can spoil him/her. But I just don't see it happening, I am not lying when I say this, I have not spoken to a female besides my mother in 7 months, and it was one word. "Hi". I have never attempted suicide, mainly because I don't have any <mod edit - methods> in my house. I don't want to fail and live with the embarrassment. My first attempt will be a <mod edit >. I have no friends at all. I'm the biggest waste of a life there ever was and ever will be. Nothing makes me happy, I even bought myself and Xbox One. I thought it would bring my happiness up a little but it just doesn't. I feel nothing will ever bring me happiness and I don't know what to do. I never posted on any other forum about my suicidal feelings, and I've never told anybody to help me. I don't like to burden others with my problems. Sorry if I jumped from topic to topic a little bit, that is just a fraction of what this pathetic life consists of.