How I feel

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by Jill, Mar 7, 2007.

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  1. Jill

    Jill Well-Known Member

    As the days pass by so slowly
    and the weeks just seem to fly
    I find my self obsessing
    about ways that I can die

    I lay awake every night
    thinking of the pain
    there is no way it can get better
    I have nothing left to gain

    Suddenly thoughts of my death
    are controlling my every move
    and every battle with my mind
    I always seem to lose

    I cut my arms with razor blades
    to dull the pain inside
    but that can only last so long
    I don’t want to be alive

    So I make a plan to take some pills
    it shouldn’t take to long
    I write my notes to all my friends
    to read when I am gone

    I plan it out so perfectly
    I even set the date
    I’m pretty sure I’m ready
    I know this is my fate

    My bed is made up neatly
    as I take them one by one
    I start to feel a little sacred
    I know I’m almost done

    My eyes are getting heavy
    my body feels so weak
    everything inside is numb
    that is the way it has to be

    I’m glad no one is here right know
    to watch me slowly die
    but still I wish I could say
    I love you and good-bye

  2. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I really hope that writing down your feelings will help keep you from acting on them. Stay with us and talk to us, talk it out, please.:smile: :hug:

  3. mike25

    mike25 Well-Known Member

    I hear you Jill.
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