How I feel

It's so easy right now to call it a day
A handful of pills and I would be on my way
Away from a life of uncertainty and hassle
Right now within my head all is baffled

Each that passes the stress gets wors
Until I feel my head wants to burst
Others around laughing and joking
They don't put into words they just put the spoke in

Breathing sore, chest aches, mind in a whirl as it continues to ache
Nervouseness increases as time goes on, how am I going to carry on
I really don't understand now what I have to do
My world is collapsing and I don't have a clue

Maybe it is time for me to accept
My time here has come to an end
My collection of pills I should now retrieve
And maybe then I will be relieved

A cowards way out some would say
But really I no longer see any other way
For within my mind it seems to be shutting down
And I feel I am floundering in a sea of time

 

I know exactly how you feel.
But a handful of pills is just going to make your life worse.

Please don't? Please......
No need to be in a hurry, your in charge, so what's the rush?

 

I should say something supportive, tell you it is better not to die. But all I can think is that I could have written that poem, may be there is some release and comfort in knowing you are not alone. That other people have felt this pain, know how hard each breath is and how painful living is.

I hope you find some hope, some treatment and find a way to want to live eventually.