I wrote this in another thread but that thread has left the front page so I thought I would just post it here and hope for some more responses... damn i had the worst day yesterday. when i go out i get very paranoid and thus very depressed. i can't stand my negative self talk......"i want to shoot myself....drown myself...i want to die...i wish i could die now." fuck i need confidence....any suggestions? What I try to say to myself is that your going to die eventually, so just enjoy it, don't worry about it, ...that helps a little bit but it fades fast. My past kills me everyday of my life...I need to get out of this funnel and see the light....a light at least. This negative self talk is really bad....I can't stop talking to myself sometimes I don't realize it and my dad says "what did you say" then i'm embarassed....wonder how i am in public...probably look crazy...this sucks man...i cant stand my cowardly life....I'm living the repercussions of my past and I can't handle it.....I'm desperate for advice...anybody remember how it was to feel confident?