That just brought it all back. I tried to make out like it didn't but it did. Pretty hard. I'm on the verge of tears as i write this. I try and put on this act for people because im here to support them. Fuck if i feel shit cos all im here for is to help other people. Last night was the first time in a while that i broke down. I'd been drinking. Feel low all day but tried to hide it. Put that happy mask on. Looks like its working. I fucking broke down so badly. Cried like a fucking baby. Worst bit of all is that i was fucking on web cam. (sorry to those two people) Fucking downed alcohol. Tried to cut but didn't work, then cried a bit more. I feel like everyones just walking away from me. Because they don't give a shit. Get what they want then walk away. Pretend to care about me but they fucking don't. Don't give a fucking shit. It's all bullshit. Fucking bullshit. The world is full of fucking shit! I'm just sick of it. I'm hurt. Upset. Angry. Pissed. Tired. Everything you can think off.