okay new here. and i just thank God that i found this site when i did. i was so low last night. i am glad there are others out there who are in the same situation i am in. would you believe that no one knows how low i am. i keep thinking that it all shows like a blaring light but amazingly enough everyone comes to me for help when i am struggling just to make it through the day myself. i know this, it takes more strength to live than to give it all up. i could so easily end it all but i keep thinking about the ones i am going to leave behind. the ones who will feel the guilt for not knowing what i was going through. and i do not want to leave them with that. go figure, here i am again thinking about everyone else instead of taking care of me. i am just glad i found this site and people who feel like i do so i know i am not alone. thanks.