How long has everyone been like this?

[Hopeiseverything]

Curious...how long have you been suicidal?
just wondering how long one can go on like this.
thanks.

 

[HappyKitty]

its part of me now. its part of me but I can channel or control it.

 

[Mousy]

I think it’s been a little over 20 years.

 

[Hopeiseverything]

I think it’s been a little over 20 years.

Wow....20 years...how do you do it. I have ‘only’ been this way for 3 years and I am ready to call it a day. Have meds helped you?

 

[Mousy]

Wow....20 years...how do you do it. I have ‘only’ been this way for 3 years and I am ready to call it a day. Have meds helped you?

Meds and therapy have made it manageable. Sleeping a lot during my free time too, and telling myself morbid things like “well, I’m another day closer to death.“ I tapered completely off my antidepressant early this year to see how I’d do and had to go back on it. I’m now thinking I’ll be needing it for the rest of my life.

 

[StrangeRanger]

Since I was 11, I'm 22 now. This year is probably the first year I've felt better fortunately & I've found self discipline but it's difficult to overcome in its entirety...

 

[lightning05]

15 years for me.

its part of me now. its part of me but I can channel or control it.

I relate to this. There were times in my life where I felt really good and other times where I had to constantly battle suicidal ideation. Lately I've just been kind of keeping it at bay but it continues to lurk around.

 

[HappyKitty]

15 years for me.

I relate to this. There were times in my life where I felt really good and other times where I had to constantly battle suicidal ideation. Lately I've just been kind of keeping it at bay but it continues to lurk around.

I’ve learned to sit on negative thoughts and just accept it, we can’t be too happy all the time. Nobody is. 😹

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I haven't been actively suicidal since I was 34 and hospitalized. I had a really good experience at hospital with very kind psychiatrists and especially the psychiatric nurses. No "Nurse Ratched" for me, lol

 

[MisterBGone]

Since the day before yesterday! . ; ) —(no!) in all seriousness: I really can’t remember, what it is, I was going to say. . . (In the time it took to log-in & find this again, I - ?) trust me; I really did have something worthwhile & point making to say (I think, anyway...) which I s why I’m going to still leave this here anyways // lest I remember to forget later on; or is it forget to remember... forget to forget?? Ohhh im all kinds of confused right now (not much more than a single drop of water will do that to you ! : )))____.~^•*>!,’~< -

 

[Gonz]

Curious...how long have you been suicidal?
just wondering how long one can go on like this.
thanks.

Just turned 39, so I 'd have to say it's been 34/35 years now. There was a good 11 year long break in the middle there though.

 

[panda685]

Since I was 12. Im 30. It never goes away. Just need to distract and learn coping methods.

 

[WolfGoddess]

30ish years, but very different levels

 

[Sleeper71]

20+ years. Freaking sucks when you can’t find anything that helps.

 

[Hopeiseverything]

20+ years. Freaking sucks when you can’t find anything that helps.

i know the feeling and I have only been like this for 3 years. I commend you for hanging on so long ...

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Decades. I had a kit prepared. Took it apart because on good days, i could see the ease of an impulsive, permanent action. now i look forward too the the end of the pain.

 

[Gonz]

Took it apart because on good days, i could see the ease of an impulsive, permanent action.

That was an excellent idea. The one time I attempted, years ago, I probably wouldn't have had the means not been right there with me.vthe ideation may go on for years and years, but the act itself seems to usually be quick and impulsive.

 

[Gonz]

That was an excellent idea. The one time I attempted, years ago, I probably wouldn't have had the means not been right there with me.vthe ideation may go on for years and years, but the act itself seems to usually be quick and impulsive.

I've already got my preferred method picked out, but it would take me several hours at least and perhaps up to a day to gather all the materials needed, and that time might make all the difference, either to change my mind or to be sure I really mean it.

 

[KM76710]

I have never been suicidal as such although I do have methods planned if I decide to, but I have never really enjoyed life or wanted to live. I have never seen any point to my existence.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Since I was about 13 or so. Sometime in middle school at least.