I cant stand it. I miss him. We have stuck to the total no contact now since arguing again on tuesday evening altho we been officially broke off since 4 weeks ish. I still check my email site I just feel so depressed today, slept as long as could to get rid of some of the day. Try to distract myself but it doesnt work. I am already on anti depressants so not like I can try them I dont know what to do with myself, really dont want to live feeling like this and I cant feel it is getting any easier. I have social Anxiety so have zilch friends. I got no real family support. Im a failure in life. Life is utter pants and I only have myself to blame as I made it that way. Dont think Ill ever be happy, have been struggling for too many years and not got anywhere.