I was wondering how long people had been coming to this forum? I've been coming here for a few months, i think so anyway it all seems a blur. I sometimes think to myself that this is what my life will be revolved around forever. I sometimes dont even know why i come on here alot of the times i want to say stuff but im to bloody scared of sounding like a twat so i keep my mouth shut. I cant even let my feelings be free in a place where no one knows me. I always feel like i get in the way im more hassle than im worth. People always say that you should love yourself but how the hell are you meant to love yourself? Sometimes i do crazy things like when im crossing the road il walk really slowly hoping a car will knock me over and il be gone.