At 20 years of age i'm unemployed (never worked), I am out of education (had to leave uni), and I only have one friend who I never see anyway. I suffer with anxiety, and am very shy. My shyness has improved slightly simply because i'm a mature person, but socially I am hopeless compared to my peers. Since 4/5 years ago i've had depression. I can't manage to get out of the house and temporary work while I sort myself, I just feel so nervous and hopeless. When I look at people my age I feel down because they're so confident and assured, and have good things going on in their lives. I feel depressed looking at women my age because I feel useless, I can't live up to them. I'm just wondering how much lower I can get. All I feel is sadness and hopelessness every day. I feel on my own in the world. In reality, I am.