I'm 25 and i've been depressed for 10+ years but am new to this forum because my drug use and depression has been causing me problems with my relationships. I would just like to use this thread to share my experiences and ask others to share thiers about recreational drug use due to failure to traditional SSRIs and CBT. I started off using LSD and MDMA oddly enough because i've read a lot of people say that they have caused life changing experiences. Not to say that this isn't true for some people with normal working brains but for people with brain chemistry issues this was clearly false for me as I began using it as an escape and became briefly delusional with the new age thinking. It soon became a search for any good feelings at all. I started using alcohol,benzos, and my favorite opiates to try to compensate for the lack of success of medication and therapy. Please share your experiences. I'm particularly interested in people trying to medicate with psychedelics and disassociates like ketamine as these are rarely discussed in my experience on messageboards. Thanks for reading.