what do you do when you dont trust yourself? i dont trust my feelings or everyones smiles ive hidden it well for the past few weeks... im fine theres nothing wrong.. but in reality nothing is right. i cant cry anymore tears and holding out for one more day isnt easy anymore.. i cant do this. i cant pretend im fine. i cant pretend im going to be fine. im not. i dont want to be breathing anymore. im selfish i know. how many more times do i have to try before i get it right?